All the Bright Places

All the Bright Places ★★★★

I don't think this so much touched a nerve as it actually cut through at least several of them. Especially this year. And especially a teen film to a near 30-year old.

I'm going to quote The Last of Us here, but it's also a very prominent quote that I carry with me.

I struggled for a long time with surviving. I still do. But no matter what, you keep finding something to fight for.

But this year, a lot of those 'somethings' keep dwindling away. Either through circumstance or through my own doing. And I'm not saying Covid is to blame here (though it's not helped).

It's me. It's always me. I'm the freak. I'm the one who relentlessly fucks up. I'm the one who can be too much to deal with. I'm the one who always burns people because I am that much of a burden. You run for the hills and never look back. I'm never the person to run away, but the person is always the one to run away from me.

I'm the freak. And I'll always be seen as such. And that stings. No, actually, it doesn't sting.

It fucking hurts.

...but hey, what about Elle Fanning and Justice Smith in this, right?